I remember standing in the Helsinki train station and staring at this sign in disbelief for a solid 5 minutes. I couldn’t believe that I had just flown from Sweden to Finland. Me? In Helsinki, after spending a few days in Stockholm? Two cities (and countries) I’ve spent countless of nights dreaming about. Especially little ol’ Helsinki, the city where one of my all time favourite band’s from. I don’t even have the words to describe the joy I felt in this city, despite my face going numb from the cold.
Ever since I’ve been back home from this trip, I’ve felt so empty. Nothing comes close to the happiness I felt in those 10 days. When I look at photos, even simple ones of a bloody train station sign, tears form in my eyes. I miss it so much. The people, the adventure, the independence, the fear of the unknown.
I remember walking around Helsinki and constantly thinking “wow, I’m in fucking HELLL-sinki”. It was such a pinch me moment. I can’t wait for the day I get to go back to Finland and explore more of its beauty, 2.5 days was definitely not enough. Until then Finland, you’re back in my dreams...
I’m sorry that I’ve been so emo in all my posts, I keep deleting them out of embarrassment, and I’ll probably end up deleting this too, but for now, I just wanted to share.
“Nah, I’m not like those other dudes, I genuinely want to get to know you”
“Omg you’re such a poser, have you even actually BEEN to a metal show? And name every single metal album ever released, in order.”
“My band’s really different, we actually make authentic rock music”
“Hey, could you write an article on my band? We won’t pay you or even acknowledge the article, but it will feed our ego”
*ignores my message about wanting to write about them because they think having 10k-16k social media followers makes them ‘too big’ to interact with ‘small’ music journalists*
𝐌𝐞: *𝐬𝐢𝐩𝐬 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐫 𝐥𝐨𝐮𝐝𝐥𝐲*
There’s always this debate of whether or not Ghost is “metal”, “hard rock”, “pop-rock”, etc and I think this constant need of categorizing and labelling music is hindering the experience of ANY music, let alone the opportunity to truly experience what Ghost is. Ghost is whatever the hell you want it to be, as long as you’re having fun….and THAT is why I adore the band so much.
Majority of the time, I’m listening to the saddest fucking music out there. If a song or an album is super depressing and makes you miss a love you never had (although, I did), chances are it's all I'm listening to on repeat -- Seriously, one of my biggest playlists on Spotify, that is private, is called “sad” and it’s almost 400 songs deep.
The music I appreciate the most is music that pulls out my biggest struggle in life: aka the inability to allow myself to get close to people. Every art that I create is about my underlying craving for the feeling of being IN love with someone (again). I truly do squish myself in the box of “constant state of misery” by doing so, but I think that will change when I finally find my “partner in crime”. (Big cheese, I know).
With Ghost, however, I get a break from that. For a few moments in time, I’m not drowning in the thought of “Will I ever find love again?”, but instead dancing to songs about death, satan and expeditions to conquer the world (lmao). Ghost offers an experience of pure joy. It’s fun, entertaining and you can take it as “deep” as you want, but even Tobias (the puppet master) says that Ghost is meant to be an escape from shitty everyday life... and well, that's about it.
I am so appreciative of this band, whether they are metal, dark-abba, pop-rock, etc. To me, they’re just Ghost, and I hold this band so so close to my heart.
71 days until I see them again! 🖤
